Comment from: Daddy [Visitor]

Dearest Daughter——
It is mid August, and I am just now reading your beautiful letter to me. I especially appreciate it when it is sent directly to me, but I know you want everyone to know all your thoughts. I prefer to be private on many things. This is one of them.

I don’t know if I ever told you that I was at least 18 years old when I said those words to my old Pap. I’ll never forget the tears in his eyes when I said it. And I don’t think he ever had to wait long after that.

I tell people, nearly every day, how proud Mother and I are of your accomplishments. I too wish we could meet in our beliefs. Mine were written, nearly 2000 years ago. Yours were rampant, even then . I don’t think our ideals, or our beliefs, will ever come together. We are so destined to be centuries apart there, and I am so sorry, have been for many, many years, that I did not have the ability to teach you what I believe (I was able to give you some of that), but more than that, the WHY of it all.

I simply can’t understand why the creation around us does not inspire faith in a higher being. Even when I go back to the supposed ‘big bang’, I have more questions. Where could that have possibly come from, who, or what, put it there, etc. No amount of physics, science, science fiction, ect. that I have ever been made privy to has ever answered those important questions, not so far as I can tell.

Do I love you? If I have been unable to prove it by now, I don’t think I ever will be able to. I am at such a loss of words to express my love, my admiration, my care and concern for you, and my tremendous pride in your accomplishments.

I didn’t mean to get off on these things, but you brought it up, and I felt I had to respond, no matter how weakly. Your Mother and I, as well as your brothers, will never b e able, nor would we want to, to put you out of our minds, or forget how much we love you. I cannot recall a single day, since the day you were born, that you have not been of deeply personal interest to me, and my love has grown deeper and stronger with the passing years.

Thank you, from the depths of my heart, for your gentle, kind, loving letter. Please accept my apologies for not answering sooner. Your entries on your blog sometimes tear me up so badly that I have to go for long periods of time without reading. Please forgive me. I will truly try to do far better. All my love to you, (that seems so vapid a way to say what I feel). I miss you beyond words. Daddy

08/14/11 @ 15:47

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